Makes me Want to Vomit

Well, I've been trying to understand the whole Russian ban on US adoptions.  When Russia first declared the ban I had read, in US newspapers online, that it was all in retaliation to a human rights law that says Russians adopted into the US who violate this law are essentially excommunicated even though they are raised, and currently, American.  That is what I gathered was the ULTIMATE problem.  It may be unrelated.  Either way, history has had a few really bad outcomes with US people adopting Russians, and Russia has always been pissed off.  Now, USA passes the Magnitsky act that bans particular Russian 'bad guys' (extortionists, spies, etc) from the country.  USA passes this law and then Russia announces the adoption ban.  These two may be completely separate from each other but they also might be directly related.  Again, this is only as I understand it.  I heard of the ban on December 28th and I directly went online to look into this matter. 

Now Canada is considering passing this Magnitsky act too.  What the hell does this mean for us?

I want to vomit thinking that Russia will ban adoptions from Canada too.  I also look at the bigger picture and see that we don't have the same human rights laws that essentially say you are only really American if you are born in America...

I am so sick to my stomach.  I asked CHOC and they told me that they have no information but hope that this won't affect Canadian adoptions.

I feel utterly defeated.  I feel like I will never become a mum.  The closest will be me having a photograph in a drawer and me being a babysitter.

Mike is remarkably less shaken.  He just says we pick a new country.  I can't keep facing rejection over and over.  I can't keep spending thousands of dollars getting to this point and having to start over.  I don't want to bankrupt us to become a parent - how the heck will I support a child in that instance?

I feel nauseous daily and now I don't expect it to lessen up at all.