Well, I do feel better now. I'm still sad and I get angry easily, but it isn't as all-consuming as it was last month. I now sing and dance around like normal. I have gained the weight I lost at the end of last year (boo!) but I'm not as lethargic so I feel I will turn it around again soon.
I do feel very self-conscious about any decision I make. I think it is all stemming from whether, or not, this adoption was the correct path for Mike and me. It has been quite hard but my worry over what I can't control with this is leaking into even simple decisions, like which kind of cheese to buy?
I still haven't began my artsy endeavours but I hope to soon. In the meantime I am hoping my soon-to-expire travel visa means I WILL get the call to go just after.
I hope...
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