Dear Universe...

I have changed the way I think a lot in the last few years.  I still need to change greatly in one manner: stop trying to payback all those who offer help.  I know if I can help someone I do so without expecting payment in any way so I need to learn to accept that help as well.

I know Mike and I are helping Kid and will continue to do so as he grows.  I have had a safety net under me woven with so much love and support that I need to realize it makes me feel so much need to pay it forward - not back.  I also have just had a safety net built beneath my already existent one.  I know that if it came down to not splitting up siblings we would be given the means necessary to ensure those kids would never be parted.  My first thought was not, "how can I ever pay that back," it was an immediate and tearful, "thank you."  I liked that thought almost more than I liked the offer.  I love you!